Just a need to write (in abstract vagueness)

[Note - Please don't expect any continuity or rational thought processes in this post]

Since high school, I've always been surprised at how much goes unappreciated in this world. Perhaps it's because I have a pretty old soul, but it sometimes bothers me how much is overlooked and misunderstood with people around me. While this may seem pompous and egotistical, it's even more frustrating to be able to identify problems and not be able to fix them. I've tried to tackle challenges larger than myself, and I have the scars to prove, yet I always find that I've learned something important, regardless of the outcome. I'd rather give it my all in hopes that I can beat the odds than give up initially. This has gotten me in trouble, has wasted years of my life, and has left lasting wounds, but at the same time, trying can flourish the best of friendships, create beautiful, lasting memories, or cause some sort of personal epiphany that was well worth the risk. Each situation that arises in my life that I deem worth my effort and time would normally be carried out to achieve some sort of closure that satisfies me, yet this isn't always possible, and thus I must admit some sort of defeat. My wish is to keep my regrets to a minimum. Some might think this is a stupid way of living, especially when certain situations are way beyond my control, yet, even if there's a 2% chance of success, I'll take that chance. I don't want to be the person who sat around and did nothing. Perhaps I wish to love too much, to invest too much into people when some think humanity isn't worth it. The stories we hear today are daunting (more on this in a later post). In a world where immaturity and ignorance are allowed to proliferate, it's difficult to know where to start. Who knows. I can pick and choose my battles - let's hope I my intuition holds true as I age. One miracle at a time, I suppose. Here's hoping that I'll keep the courage to maintain a stable sense of honesty, composure, trust, love, faith, patience, and virtue while taking risks way beyond my ability to measure. Be a friend and keep me in check, won't you? And be there in both my triumphs and in my failures, if you would.

I'll end this post with the thought that sparked the first sentence. Perception is biased by the constant bombardment of signals we receive. I urge you to take one of these channels and close it off for a little bit. Amuse me and heed the saying, "Silence is golden." I think more people need to learn to stand still every now and then, and just listen. Cut your mind out of the equation for some time and see what comes of it. Listen to what the world around you wants to tell you, listen to the current balance your body holds, listen to the bustling of life experienced on a daily basis, and listen to your heart tells you. You might be surprised by what you might discover. :)